Posted: Nov 14, 07 5:49pm

My father passed away this pass May. He had Renal disease and was in the hospital for about 16 months. The death has been real hard on all of us. I feel now that i am responsible for taking care of my mother, and my brother. My brother is 28 and suffers from addiction and mental disorders, he has his good days and bad. My mom is very heavy, smokes at least a pack a day, and is under a ton of stress from the death and from my brother. I fear i will lose them both sometimes. I'm only 22 and its a scary thought.

I had a nice, paying internship up in Buffalo after graduating college, had a great group of friends, and a lot of girl prospects. I loved my life there and the last thing I wanted to do was leave it. I did leave it all though to come home and be here for my mother, and for my brother. I felt it was the responsible thing to do and I am glad I did it but i miss Buffalo and that life so much. I suppose it was time to leave anyway though, I was there going to school for four years. I just never pictured my life like this, it's too much responsibility on top of trying to assimilate to the real world and find a path in life. I envy all of my friends, they could never understand my plight, and i wouldnt expect them too nor want them too.