is this break-up permanent?

Wolfboy you are both young...Carry on..Go out ..have fun...Make lots of friends..Date others...Dont get serious with one when your so young in life. You have soooo much life to explore and live...

lol actually, you have a point.

but on the other hand...

since i could remember

when i explored going out with girls, at the age of 15.

i've probably been in 500 relationships in that range from that age to now.

i've been in love twice.

i know how to handle it,

but is it just normal that, me being a guy, i know i can be with other girls,

i've been with plenty.

i've had more than enough sexual relationships.

and at this point i just feel like i found my home,

what i see in her i see such a special bond.

nothing i've ever encountered.

i feel free,

i feel like nothing in the world matters.

but you have reason.

i tried your advice

i've gone out i've carried on but it still amounts to the same thing.

i love her.

might i sound naive? probably.

might i sound like a crazy kid yes.

but getting cheated on all my life really never helped me at all.... and for reasons i don't want to know i never really asked a girl why, but just something deep down inside me is telling me to stay.

i will say though.

my first love, it was just like its over, boom,

and we just argued after that and made up 10 months later hahahaha,

but yeah i accepted the relationship being over,

and i also accept it being over with my ex girl friend.

but could it really be???

i mean nothing in my life, has amounted to this, sometimes i wondered if it was too good to be true...her family accepts me, im making someone of myself in life, just that missing link, like that of a puzzle.

i just feel like i found that last piece.

im a very passive guy, very very veryyyyy and i mean very intellectual and i am a serious critical thinker.

i took my patience with this girl.

never took her for granted, and it took me a little under a year to really open up to her...

and its just a bust you know?

This is OLDSPACE.

Well wolfboy all I can add is time will tell..But please dont stop living..and Im not just saying date, date..date..Im saying finishing your schooling...Work..and most of all look after you and your future..If its meant to be and if she finds her way and your there..Wonderful..But dont sit and wait...And whatever you do ..DON'T STALK!!...Let it go...and see if it comes back to you..

Wolfboy, if you've been in 500 anything, they are not relationships. Even if you were an appropriate age for this site, 500 is a ridiculous number.

Kids run on hormones....its the fuel in the tank... One thing at 18...its five minutes in the closet...fifteen in the car...back in the party to see who wants to get it on.......

Not for anything, but isn't this site for the Baby-Boomer generation. We really don't want to encourage...

Oh well, you get the point.

Respectfully,

D