It's been quite a long day
starting from the moment I remembered that two years ago I
lost
everything I ever wanted.

It's not that it was different than what
anyone wants, but for me
it was something I had never had and never
hoped.

And suddenly I did and it was there and I wondered
how I would survive if
I ever lost

it and I found out, of course, and I have spent the last
long years doing everything I can
to pretend I did not lose the most of all.

So today, this long day, I tell
myself, yes, you did, you lost it
and it's not likely to return.

This is what I tell myself
for I cannot bear
to say aloud that it will never
not ever
no never

return.

My God Otter. I love how you write.

Thanks, Mark.

I just have to get it out once in awhile. And it feels better to have witnesses.

...peace, Otter.

I enjoyed the poem very much. Well done.

We read to know we are not alone, and sad though it may be, the sentiment that you related in the poem also applies to me. Thanks for sharing. Daena

Writing's a great way to leave the past in the past. :-)

Need I say, Otter, how much I appreciate this poem? I do, very much.

When "never" comes into an equation, I am always drawn to The Rolling Stones and one of their lyrics (paraphrased as follows):

You can't always get what you want, but you might find, you get what you need.

Here's hoping the same for you...

~~~

Thanks, Bmichael, for your noble efforts. I see life can go on with a little help from my friends. Thanks, my friend.

Oh, I'm back. That ghostly static you see on your TV is me, maybe!