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Posted: Apr 30, 08 11:29pm
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Thank you Petronia...
I have to be moi..and so far, I'm first, does God love fine-boned pipples or what?
Love ya, and tell DH he's Blessed among men, in my opinion...
I'm home after the snakebite... but let them know if I hurt..(huh?)... Bun of a sitch...as if... Hello? (They didn';t get the reference to Amelia Earhart... DANG!)
Jesus carried me through,ipples... I'm blesssed one more time, soap opera life I live and all...
Luvs ya, Blesssings, and agape, .
Moi
Come unto moi,
I will Bless YOu! It's a promise
and you are a keeper!
Posted: Apr 30, 08 11:41pm
I read your snakebite account. I was infuriated at all that is thrown your way. BUT, prayer prevailed and I took it before the throne of God, Lan. Glad to hear that you live on and are fast becoming a legendary soap opera type star on TBD.
Posted: Apr 30, 08 11:45pm
... as if I need it...
Love ya
Moi
Posted: May 1, 08 12:10am
Just to share with our group, I "threaten" Nancy a SPANKing from me if she does not love or respect herself (BTW she is on a retreat). I recently "threatened Terry with the same SPANKing technique because he puts himself down. I am messaging with Lan and he mentioned a cattle prod while we were discussing his word to me and to God. This is hilarious, but I have one of those literally. So to Lan, if he misbehaves and acts careless toward his personal well being, I will PROD him.
Posted: May 1, 08 12:17am
leefoster
Posted: May 1, 08 12:10am
Lansr, I have all ways wanted to say this to the skipper. Skipper get your Alpha sierra sierra, India November, Golf echo alpha Romeo. Have you got that Captain? That's right. Now take the lead. In my prayers!
LT, if I can ever be of assistance, I am very familiar with briefing and getting them together. Recently, I assistance. My brother, who is the chief financial officer for a very large corporation. My experience, comes from being chief of management and analysis division for, one of the world largest employers. Therefore, if I may assist you give me a note off-line. My best senior managers were female!
On fire for JC7, I used to live in the state next to you, I had been known to cross the bridge for a beer or two.
NancyM still my prayers as.
RoseBear, I again find myself worried about your ability to work with forgiveness. Ask the editor, if I know about forgiveness and its problems! I'm always with you.
TraumaG, my state; Finally passed the save RN staffing levels. It's taken a long time! I want to thank you for being a Mother Teresa. I prayed always for your strength and courage to go forward.
Cinder, I am always touched by your tender heart, may you have Faith Hope and Charity!
Hi, Diana was thinking and praying for you!
Editor, let it rip, Minister, you are bringing a flock to Christ !
Your humble servant, always in prayers for you.
lee
Posted: May 1, 08 12:23am
editor can do the 'cattle prod thang' ennytime I mess up... then I'd deserve it...
OOOOhhh, I hurt so bad... as if ... so pray for me, Karl. Cynthia, Gayle... Leefoster/Terry... editor is cute... pray for her and DH, Mockingkitty6, and Kelli (TTraumaGpddess - congrats on Story BTW) and blonde beauty LJQRN, ahm gonna wake up one a these days, and if Jeanne (mah wife) isn't holding me down, ahma gonna catch you, fer shure...(whoa, diffrent thread Big Guy! - sowy)....
Loves ya, and Blessings for agape,
moi
Posted: May 1, 08 12:34am
I luv it, editor~!
I got it... and you are gorgeous... tell your DH so, too...
Yeah, and Lauren, and Gayle, and Cinder, and Rose, and (lemme tell you a sexcret, I love ladies... it's a moi thang) and Lauren, and Terry (whoops - guy alert!), and Gayle, and Gator Gal, and Cindy, and you know you are lovfed in Amarillo by morning.... and gal in Wisconsin - on fire...
I luvs wimmens, and guys, like BadFrog, Britscvot, D2,Dreg, lostrmutt, BMichael, Milt T, and Dee Croxss, and guys know who they are...and moi...
Luvs ya... agape,
moi
Posted: May 1, 08 12:35am
Lansr, my warrior brother, in plain words Is there anything I can do for you? Having lived on a farm I do know of the prod, I have felt it more than once. Is this how you want the editor to start your heart?
Get strong, get well!
My warrior brother! Question. How many feathers, you got? lee
Posted: May 1, 08 1:11am
Two more feathers than a buzzard wants, is moi's answer... but I'd trade for you any day (cause ah lahk you!) meaning don't go away!
Posted: May 1, 08 12:44am
eltee, Nancy, Cindy...
kinda rhymes...
you are Beauty...
works for moi...
Then there is Petronia, Gayle, Lauren, Rose, Mocking poretty, oh... lemme just love y'all (Jeanne is my wife's name. k?) and teacup. I think I'm b;lessed to know you and Souther5bl and AZure-CAlm, and spuff is more than enough, and anyardier is so cute, I'd have to be me to lahk her, or what? (And her guy would probly KMAA (Kick My Aryan Ass). so won't go there!)... thanks Beauty...
and there I go...
Luvs y'all, k?
Blessings,
mopi
Posted: May 1, 08 1:19am
Just so y'all know (busy as I am)...
no Cancer treatments in May! Yeah!
But there's atrade-off. cause a heart attack and snakebite.. they don't wanna play... so ahm OKay, kinda...
Loves ya,
Blessings and agape,
moi
Posted: May 1, 08 3:48am
Lan, are you kidding? Really a snake bite? Wow, you are the toughest dang guy I know! Whew! In case the redhead ever bores you, I'm a helluva 6'3" blonde. LOL! There's a visual to keep ya strong. Hang tough big guy. You are so loved around here. You really are. An urban legend in your own right. Press on, soldier. Glad to hear no treatments in May. It'll be a good break. Deep breaths. We're all routing for you. Terry, thanks. I will contact you offline. Everyone, I really wanted to thank you for your prayers for my career. Yesterday, I again felt defeated on my way to work, but (again) fought with my resolve to continue to do my best each and every day. Much to my surprise at a meeting late in the day, I was praised for a suggestion I made which may make it to the COO of our company. I work for one of the largest telecommunications companies in the world. The fact that an idea of mine might make it to him, is a blessing I was not expecting especially due to my present difficulties. It was one small encouragement and I wanted to share it with all of you. I do try to stay positive and look at all the gifts God gives me as opportunities to grow and be a better person. I guess editor can get the cattle prod on me if I don't! Have a great morning to all my dear ones on our new May thread. I feel we are so blessed to have each other. Good morning! LT :-)
Posted: May 1, 08 5:02am
yes indeed, eltee, we are blessed to have each other. i feel a true sense of peace inside me daily, that is so stable and firm, and i think it is directly related to the prayers that come from this group. i am still dealing with my daughter's father's self pitying selfishness and other matters but i am up lifted and inspired by you all to persevere in faith.
yes, terry. i have trouble with forgiveness. i am working on it. i am a work in progress, forgiven by God and loved and that gives me hope.
dear LanSr, you are in my heart and my prayers. i wish i could offer you more, cook you a meal, help out around the house, make you laugh.
a new month! didnt april fly by? blessing of joy to you all this day. thank you all for your kind affirming words, and for your prayers.
Posted: May 1, 08 8:15am
My power went off---common occurrence, and it wasn't restored for 6 hours. Guess what I did? I prayed for every single person, individually, that I have known from the past and the present. I began with our upper room folks. I really believe God wanted me to set aside time to accomplish that. It is one thing to say, yeah, I'll pray, but to do a marathon was exhilarating.
LT, that is awesome about the recognition of your shining at the meeting.
Rose, healing from abuse takes so very long, especially when it began in childhood, and we made quite naturally the patterned expectations in choosing a spouse. I am free indeed, but I'd hate to count up all the years it took for the real me to emerge. You know I am pulling for you and really do understand the process.
Posted: May 1, 08 8:38am
Happy May Day everyone!! Can you believe it's May already? I can't.
I have taken a break from my weekly trips to my mom's. I just have too much traveling to do this week. I slept really late this morning and should be out in my studio, but am sitting here reading all your posts and smiling.
lansr - snakebit? good night! i was snakebit once. for real. a copper head. my husband prayed over me on the way to the ER (we lived 30 minutes out in the country) and i was healed! the fang marks were still there, but all other symptoms left. we ended up going to the dairy queen and getting me an oreo blizzard! God is good!
eltee, good for you!!!!! i'm glad you got some well deserved recognition and encouragement! i would be so intimidated in the corporate world, i would curl up and die on the floor right in front of everyone.
i was at a wine and cheese party thing last night, visiting with a bunch of people i didn't know and some lady asked me how i got a job riding horses all day long (long story). anyhow...i suddenly started sharing my testimony of how i met Jesus (which happened when i got the job with the horses). her eyes kind of glazed over and she got that really 'uncomfortable' look every time i said JESUS. i could have spared her the discomfort and said 'the Lord' instead, but I just had to say JESUS every time. ha, ha. when i finished she said "Well, what a sweet story." in that dismissive way people have when they want to signal that they want to be THROUGH with that topic right now, thank you. (smile) i'm sure my california cousin was embarrassed that i was over there testifying to her guests! ha, ha.
terry i hope you are doing alright this morning. Lord, please heal, bless and sustain my brother today. Give him joy inexpressible, glorious and overflowing IN SPITE of all that he is walking through, so that you are glorified to everyone that sees and knows him. Amen!
later gators. i love ya'll,
cinder
well it's 10:30 and i need to work out and get to work.
Posted: May 1, 08 8:52am
Ha! I loved it Cinder!
JESUS! JESUS! JESUS! JESUS! JESUS! JESUS! JESUS! JESUS! ET AL, GO JESUS!
Have a blessed day, friend.
Posted: May 1, 08 10:37am
You were stung, li'l one...
I was hit, not bit (cottonmouth there)...
And a one, annna two, there's for moi, and ya's fer blue...
Yeah, it's a blessing...I hope you continue to believe in yourself and prices - you are worth every penny! Fer shure and certain! Go TEXAS!
Your Jesus sculpture is so wonderful, I wheeze, as in breath-taking... You tell that other person JESUS, is US! (Moi too)
Loves ya...
Moi
Posted: May 1, 08 3:36pm
Good afternoon, my friends, and Happy May! Just a friendly hello to my favorite people and my favorite site!
I am so amazed by you, eltee. You are very courageous...I would crumble like last week's cookies in a room full of high-powered executives. You are a brave and amazing woman!
Cinder..you go girl! GO JESUS! I love that story! I love your attitude and upbeat posts...I get a smile every time I read you. Thank you for you.
Lan..welcome back, brother! I missed you! So, since no one asked, is the snake dead? My daddy always described my dear uncle as 'ornier than a snake..if a snake bit him, the snake would be the one suffering!' I think that also describes you, you wonderful character!
Rosie and Gayle and Terry...love you guys and your support and your prayers. I would be so lost without your awesome friendship!
Dear editor...can never forget you. I love you and need you and lean on your support and guidance. You have lifted me more than you know every day with your kindness and your forever faith. God Bless You!
I am also a member of The Writing Group. We are beginning a week-long topic of 'evil'. UGH. It makes me squirmy and yet I acknowledge that society is more often about evil and hate than love. I prayed before writing and asked God if I should even pursue this...it has potential to cause soul bleeding, which before my rebirth was cathartic but now I choose to let the wounds scab over and heal. God in His greatness, answered beautifully by giving me words to instruct and explain rather than hurt; to warn and teach. It was good. I will never underestimate His power, His ability to lead me where He wants me to go.
You all have a blessed day. Peace to you all. Your sis in Christ, Kelli
Posted: May 1, 08 8:39pm
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okay,i tried to add a couple of photos of what i just finished working on today. i don't think it worked. oh well....
thanks lansr. i'm glad you like the Jesus. it was a commission piece and i sure enjoyed doing it.
kelli, thanks for the compliment. i'm glad i can make you smile. i admire what you do for a living. you are making a difference every day and what an opportunity to be a source of encouragement and kindness to people in distress.
ed, thanks! JESUS, JESUS, JESUS!!!!
Rose, i'm praying that you are feeling those everlasting arms around you tonight as you go to sleep, that you are filled with peace and joy.
eltee, keep on keeping on my friend. the Lord is obviously blessing you and I'm so glad. i know you will always give Him the glory.
terry, dear one, keep trusting him. i will keep praying for you and knowing that He is YOUR shepherd.
gayle, i hope you and your mom and dad are doing better and better. i pray tomorrow will be a GOOD day in every way for your household.
if my photos DID load and they magically appear after i press (or 'mash' as my mom would say) submit, i couldn't figure how to get it all in one pic. kept cutting it in half. so i did the top half, then the bottom. the piece is small, only about twelve inches high. i wanted to picture Jesus' delight at one of His silly sheep, trying to be the center of his attention.
Rest well all!
Blessings,
Cinder
Posted: May 1, 08 9:33pm
Thanks again for another smile, cinder! This is a sweet and lovely piece. I know you have posted your site, but I can't find it. May I have the address again, please, so I may see your works? Thank you.
Posted: May 1, 08 11:11pm
Cinder, beautiful piece. I love animals. In your piece, the lamb looking upward is what struck me most. The responsibility we all have to tending to all God's creature's great and small. The delight and amusement of the Good Shepherd looking upon His sheep. How the love---a two way street---flowed through this piece of art. Thank you so much for the visual focus for me.
K, I read your piece and I have to say you received the greatest amount of kudos. Could it be you stuck to the theme and did not make it an angry and bitter subject, but a teaching subject? Someone just this past week asked me to read his political newsletter and comment. I advise two things about my eye when I read. I only can contribute two ways: If I learned something and if I can encourage. In keeping with who I am, I must post your piece here with highest regards for the talent of teaching via pen that God has bestowed upon you. My personal favorite line that will stick forever (no pun intended) was "Regardless, it becomes our full time job the moment we discover the little 'plus' sign in the pee stick."
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By Trauma Goddess:
The unspeakable horrors that can befall our children are what nightmares are made of. These are the things that cause gray hair and sleepless nights and worry ulcers. As new parents, we buy the most advanced toys, look for the best schools, shop and prepare the best food so that our child will have every opportunity to be as wonderful and blessed as we could hope and imagine.
But yet, we know the evil that lurks that can affect our precious offspring, take them away from us, harm them irreparably, turn them into monsters, alter their lives (and therefore ours) forever.
Will it be the creep in the park bathroom that forever scars them physically and mentally? Will it be the speeding car that they dash in front of and become the victim of trauma that will never heal their tender bodies? Will it be the school junkie that gives them a taste of a drug; methamphetamine, speed, crack, cocaine, (we can only hope it would be as 'innocent' as pot) so that they become unrecognizable addicts and life as they know it is over? Will it be some genetic or physical ailment that will pop up like a jack in the box to send them into a world of hospitals and exams where we place our trust in someone we don't know because we don't have any choice? Will it be something else?
Regardless, it becomes our full time job the moment we discover the little 'plus' sign in the pee stick. We can only hope that the worst evil our children experience is an occasional dream of the bogeyman under the bed, an encounter with the school bully (and not the one with the gun is his backpack!), maybe a broken promise or a little white lie. But alas, the odds are against us. The evil that is out there (and sometimes it is as close as our computer screen and the internet), is ready to take our children, change our children, harm our children. Gone are the days of freedom to wander and explore, gone are the days of 'see you, mom!' as they dash out the door without a cel phone in their pocket, gone are the days of easy, breezy, life. Because we know. Because we fear. Because we watch the news and realize we can't protect them every second from the pervasive evil that can take our most precious and destroy them, thereby destroying us as well.
Posted: May 2, 08 2:50am
Tell me that you love me, Junie Moon... ah hurt, but ahm OK!
Did the leefostrer/Terry thang for April... but this is May... eltee, and ever'body... luvs ya...when I grow up, I want you in my life, dear Jesus! Kelli, you too, and congrats on Story!
True story, I was hit... but ahm OK now... and the little bugger is still under porch... rattlin' away... oh yeah, ain't life grand?
Luvs ya, Blessings and agape..
moi
Posted: May 2, 08 3:15am
Lan and all, I luv you from Junie Moon and the Lord who is creator and in control.
My entire Vista package was erased and re-installed. It will take me eons to rebuild. This is a second happening for me since last November. I will be on when I can, at best, but I now see clearly why hours yesterday was spent in prayer for you all.
Carry on!
Posted: May 2, 08 3:31am
JESUS, JESUS, JESUS!!!! YEAH, AND ONE MORE JESUS!!! Ah ha ha! I love it. That was awesome, Cinder. Can I tell you once again how plain magnificent your sculptures are?? Uh! I get chills. Thank God for your talent, it makes you richer than anyone with a huge bank account - trust me on that one, darlin'. Kelli, your story reminds me of a poem I wrote in grammar school that won a Weekly Reader award (remember those?) I'll have to post it for you someday. I don't remember it by heart, but I'll grab it and post soon. For all of you who understand the corporate environment THANK YOU. Not many people understand the cut-throat environment I place myself into everyday. It's survival of the fittest and, quite honestly, I'm finding I don't fit in anymore. I have no desire to hurt another to advance my career. There was a time when I was hungry (I'll admit), but the fire is gone from me, replaced with strong faith in God and the hope that a purpose worthy of His name will befall me someday. Certainly what I do now is not worthy, however big the paycheck or the perks. My love and support to all who struggle through this day (anyone heard from Terry?) Editor, God speed to your Vista issue -- we need you so! Also, I would like to offer up a prayer to those who are hungry in this world. There is a global crisis going on right now and we must pray for enlightenment to guide us from this darkness. I am very concerned about prices and it's affect on those of us who need the most. God bless you all today and always! Lauren :-)
Posted: May 2, 08 6:34am
Kelli, Your piece is so powerful and so true. Evil IS so prevelant out there, and our little ones are so precious to us. i remember when i was a little girl i thought my father could protect me from anything. i never worried when there was a bad storm if daddy was in the house. however, my children learned that daddy and momma couldn't keep a tornado from ripping their house apart. For years after that terrible event, we spent untold hours sitting in closets during tornado alerts, praying and singing hymns.
i worked for six years at a residential psychiatric treatment center for children. i did equestrian therapy, took them on trail rides. but oh, the case histories!! we tried to teach them how Jesus loves them and is always with them. then one would ask, "Where was Jesus when my stepfather was raping me every night?" and an answer would not come easily, because i would echo in my mind "Where WERE you Jesus? What do i say to this child? I have no idea what horror and terror is!" (obviously, i was just a cowgirl and not a therapist - they did have real therapists and psychiatrists thank God)
i suppose i like to think, in my cowgirl mentality, of Jesus coming back on that white horse of his. Coming back to make things right. To pay back for all the evil done to every little boy or girl, man or woman. "Vengance is mine, I will recompense" saith the Lord.
I also take great comfort in this verse "These things I have spoken unto you, that in me you might have peace. In the world you shall have trouble, but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world." (John 16:13)YIPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEE!!!!!
oh and i'm glad you guys liked my shepherd piece. not the best piece in the world, but i liked it. now let's hope it makes it through the fire.
ed, i'm sorry you have computer troubles. that makes me CRAZY!! hopefully you will be back and running very soon (selfish, selfish, always selfish!) WE NEED YOU!!
lan, i'm worried about you. you don't sound so good brother. i'll be praying for you today.
and terry, where are you? i'm praying that soon you will feel like getting online again and reassure all of us with your presence.
eltee, thanks for your kind words. i know how rich i am, truly. and the good Lord has granted me a non worrying spirit, which is quite handy to have when you have no idea how much money is coming. i remember my sister in law saying to me "yes, but you DO know actually how much you will be making a month, right? Otherwise, how do you know if you will have enough to pay your bills...?" (SMILE) hmmmm. i loved your line "it's survival of the fittest, and i find i don't fit anymore." WOW. that made me think of that verse "when I am weak, then he is strong.." (one of those puzzling little bible truths - understatement)
rose, what gives? are you still in the 'senior flurry' ? this is such a stressful time for a kid. everyone is always asking "well, what are you going to do? what college are you going to? what do you want to major in?" and most of them don't have a clue as to what they want and they are totally overwhelmed by it all. and then there's us, the parents. there's not even time enough to mention the emotional rollercoaster you are on, dear rose. just know that you and your daughter are in my prayers. God is in control and working things out in His own way and time.
Well, I have written a short book it seems. (anything to avoid a workout, right? right!)
i love all you guys!!!! Blessings on your Friday!
Posted: May 2, 08 6:48am
P.S. forgot to mention the website. it's www.burdenstudio.com
Posted: May 3, 08 1:55am
Yes, amen, on hunger issues. We should be wrestling in prayer for those basic needs, LT rather than pretend children are not dying daily. Please try to remember to post your poem. It will bless us.
Cinder, thank you so much for being you and carrying on in my absence yesterday. I am wondering what the next piece you will post? *please, pretty please*
Gayle, the fears will be worse than the realty that I have indeed prayed for a good and wholesome result from your test. A sidenote, I was locked out from TBD, and discovered it was because it is not compatible with IE*. Have you anything in your operating system that TBD hates?
K, you are never far from my thoughts, or desire that others may see Jesus clearly in your life.
Cheryl, those powers that be (not the good ones) been messing with me. They cannot prevail! Let us know please your needs and what is happening in your life that we might support and lift you up.
Rose, YOU WILL HEAL! Did you hear this old gal on evidence in my heart?
Nancy, help me out here and tell us what your time away group/experience was like.
Posted: May 2, 08 2:36pm
It's hard to believe it's May, we had snow yesterday! Luckily it did not stay on the ground, it melted as it hit. We alternated between snow and rain all day. Rainy and cold today. Hard to believe that a couple of weeks ago we had 2 BBQs, and ate on the patio.
I am in a lot of physical pain, and have a lot wrong with me right now. I have an appt. with a G. I. doctor on Monday, and my family doctor on Tuesday. I am hoping Monday's appointment ends at least my mental fear, that I may have cancer like my Dad's was. I'm hoping it's just a change in a long-time health issue.
I am unable to stay long on the computer, but check this thread the days I can get on at all. You are all in my thoughts and prayers. I was really worried when I read Terry was thinking he'd hurt someone, thrilled when Lauren was told her suggestion was a very good one, hopeful when Rose said she was working on forgiveness, shocked when I read Lance was snake bit (or hit), encouraged whenever I see Nancy coming out of her shell. All of you touch me daily, I can't even try to tell you all today. I hope the best for all of you at all times. May you all have a blessed weekend, and a wonderful new week. I'll be thinking of, and praying for, all of you.
Posted: May 2, 08 3:00pm
Thank you Cinder! The whole topic of evil makes me squirmy and to address it as a daily study has me praying for His guidance before I ever put fingers to keyboard. It would be so hard to see innocent little faces scarred day after day by abuse from people who were supposed to protect them. God placed you in their lives to offer a little joy and hope, I'm sure!
I love two pieces in your collection and after perusing your site, I agree with Lan...girl, you are UNDERpriced! I left you contact info on your site so we can do business. You are doing God's work my dear and you are lovely.
Okay, where's Nancy? Terry is still posting on April's thread so he is up and about, just hasn't made it to May yet, I'm guessing! (The calendar flipped a little soon for me, too!)
Thank you ed, for bringing my piece here for people to read. It is a piece of His work that flowed through my fingers...your compliments fill my heart with gladness that I may be succeeding in touching others with His light!
eltee, onfire, Gayle, Lan, Jack, dreg, Nancy, lee, Cinder, Rosie and everyone else that my tired mind may have forgotten...Have a glorious, wonderful, blessed day! Much love, Kelli
Posted: May 2, 08 4:19pm
I tried a couple of times last night to post, but it (whatever it is) would not let me. But I am not discouraged.
Kelli, I love your piece on evil. I wish that the world was like it was we grew up. When the neighborhood watched out for each other and the neighbors knew each other and us kids were always at each others house or yard. We could walk and play at the schoolyard or local park without any worries except for skinned knees and elbows (and I have the scars to show for those.) It is sad that evil is so prevalent in today's society where you can't trust anyone.
Even though I don't check in each day, remember that you are all in my thoughts and prayers and please remember me in yours.
Always,
Cheryl
Posted: May 2, 08 4:24pm
Cheryl
Last night just after I came on to try and catch up, it would not let me do anything, then the TBD upgrade in progress sign came up. TBD shut us out to do work, nothing to do with you in particular. I don't see anything different today, as to what works & what doesn't for me, still have the same glitches, so far at any rate.
Posted: May 2, 08 4:33pm
hi everybody
havent checked in as much as i should. but i did finally look at cinder's website and i am so blown away at the incredible beauty and skill of your work! wow and wow and wow and i wish i could buy something from you. (someday i will and that is a promise.) cinder, you go girl. (your Jesus sculpture is magnificent. i love all the people, their incredibly expressive faces. you have such GIFT.)
i have had a very hard week emotionally that has caught up with me physically. today would have been my wedding anniversary with the x. and i hate to say this but even tho he was mean and cruel and hurtful and abusive to me, i loved him then. i thought i would spend my life with him. it represented the shattering of many dreams and it meant a lot of loss and today was a hard day because of that. it is so hard to put regrets behind me and to not feel like a failure. i still have grief along with the pain and the anger. because there is anger too--he is still being hurtful to my daughter and it is hard to see that. but she is big now and i can no longer stand between them.
still and all, life is good and God is good and you all are good and my life is better and richer for knowing you all. i am sorry i am so lazy i dont list you all (because i know how good it feels to see those posts addressed especially to us by name) and address you all, and i am sorry i come to to whine and complain and rarely to share joy. i feel bad about that.
Posted: May 2, 08 4:59pm
Rose
You never whine without a good reason, even if you did I would forgive you, since we are both God's children.
I too sometimes grieve on the anniversary of my divorce, or wedding date, not for the relationship, but for the person I lost because of that relationship, my true self. I killed her off by entering that relationship, she was a much freer, more open, more loving, still an introvert, but not nearly as shy, and wary, a relaxed person, easy to laughter, than who she has become, she will be missed always, even though I strive to get her back. I cannot imagine how it must feel with a child involved, or how it hurts to watch her be ill-treated by her father. I think it is normal to grieve what was, since it started with love, even as you know you'd never want it back. I am sorry your daughter is still being hurt, I will say additional prayers for her.
I too want a piece of Cinder's art, I even was ready to order one, I'll fly away, until we learned how much the brokerage fee would be, putting it way out of my budget for now. But someday I'll buy it, or another piece, I'll save up for years if I have to. Cinder is obviously touched by God as she sculpts.
Posted: May 2, 08 4:55pm
hey thanks rose. when i read what you said, i thought, 'gee, i should go look at my website and see what the heck she's talking about.' ha, ha. it's all from God - i can't take any credit for it. i discovered i could sculpt, playing with my kids with playdoh. i have no education, just highschool and none in art. but i am really thankful, because i love doing it. ya'll are so encouraging. THANK YOU!!
and i'm sorry you're feeling sad about your anniversary. there are so many hopes and dreams when you get married, and when it doesn't work out, the let down must be really hard. hang in there rose. i am praying for you. i know that the Lord has a wonderful plan for your life. He will use these hard times, these heart aches, just you wait, for your ultimate good. i wish i lived next door. i would come over and sing a song and dance a dance for you and you would not be able to help laughing. i promise.
and if we can't whine here, then where? i thought this was a free 'whining zone'.
hi gayle!! sorry you've had a painful day. i hope you feel better tomorrow dear one.
and don't we all miss editor? i guess her computer is still giving her problems. hope she's up and running again soon.
cheryl....i'm glad to see your post. i don't know you too well yet, but hopefully i will.
happy weekend everyone!!!
Posted: May 2, 08 4:56pm
i wish you lived next door too. we'd have fun. xxoo
Posted: May 2, 08 5:05pm
thanks gayle. you are very kind and empathetic. that's what i think about--how i was changed. and will i ever heal and will i ever really love and trust like that again? will i ever let anyone that close to me ever again? i feel like my heart was cauterized and it is numb, in places, with scar tissue.
thanks for your prayers. you are in my prayers too, as always.
Posted: May 2, 08 8:59pm
OK everyone(((group))) Im back.I missed everyone was away since Tuesday.Editor mentioned that in earlier post for me.Prayed for some of the previous posts ,will read more tomorrow Sat when my mind is refreshed after good night sleep in my own bed.