Posted: Mar 27, 08 12:50pm

I lose control whenever I think someone has disrespected me.I sort of drift off and sulk and cry and then when I get tired of that I go into a rage. Last time I went into a uncontrollable rage I also became violent and busted all sorts of stuff in my house.I slipped away after that and let my alterego take over.My other self is shy and afraid of life.Too sweet to get radical about anything or anyone!

Blacked out I barely remember sitting up in my bed with empty pill bottles surrounding me! I barely remember being in the hospital ,being forced to drinking charcoal .I remember being in a group at the hospital looking at all these strange people telling everyone their problems,I remember only wanting to sleep.

So,whats the answer.Get mad as hell and go nuts,go to hospital,come home and know everything is the same.

Or,just drift along letting people do whatever they want to do,look and everything is the same.

Then (I silently scream).

What is my main question? I honestly dont know!!!!

hurt people hurt people