You are very young and undoubtedly have not dealt with what drove you to drugs and drinking in the first place. This is just more of it. Get yourself into the hands of a good therapist before you totally screw up your life.

You are so fortunate to objectively recognize your situation and that you want to change. There is nothing wrong with seeking a therapist's assistance in helping you sort things out. Does your employer have an EAP program available? Something is troubling you--it's hard to deal with on your own. Good luck!

To Vegas-gurl1987,you are not possessed by the devil,it sounds like you have a great deal of anger inside which you are turning on yourself,please do not hurt yourself anymore,seek help NOW!!!!!!!!!!is there a family member or friend you trust?or please seek professional help. bonlee9@gmail.com

Bonnie and Vegas girl, you are in good company.

I'm 65 years old and I still don't understand myself - and I doubt if anyone else can, but that's another issue.

The best years of my life was in the rocking 1960's in London when the whole world was rocking. Strangely, I was never attracted to drugs because I discovered life itself was the biggest kick of all.

I hope you will discover the same kick I had.

Wow! Where's it all gone...

Hi Vegas, I am smart enough to know I have problems, but for the most part am not smart enough to fix them on my own. That said, I have enough personal experience to know that drugs, alcohol, and hitting yourself are all self destructive outlets for something. (glad to hear you have are dealing successfully with your drug demons)I am especially worried about your comment "and all sorts of other things". There are community health programs all over this country. I think you really need to sit down and talk some of this out of your system. Talk therapy can depend a lot on the person you end up with. BELIEVE my, I know. If you don't connect with the first person, ask to see someone else. Repeat until you find the person you feel that understands where you are coming from. Peace, and Good Wishes!

PS. Milt may have something to say about this, if he does, pay attention, he knows what he is talking about.