Posted: Oct 9, 08 7:05pm
Today's been one of "those" days. I woke up feeling incredibly sad and didn't want to get out of bed. I did, but seemed to keep finding myself back there between bouts of inexplicable crying. Luckily today was a day I was already scheduled to work from home so I didn't have to physically go in to the office. I tried to work, but couldn't concentrate on anything. I am just so lonely...all the time...but sometimes it hits me worse than usual.
I live alone, except for a dog and a cat, and my grown daughter drops in for a weekend occasionally. I have an anxiety disorder and that makes it very difficult for me to get "out there" and meet people who are strangers. Everyone I know is married or otherwise attached so hanging with them is often depressing itself. Most of the time my inability to do things that "normal" people do causes me to be depressed, like today.
I do go to doctors (3 of them) and am on medication, but that only helps; it doesn't cure it. My anxiety is of a genetic origin that is generally a lifetime disorder for most people, so all the "don't worry be happy" stuff doesn't really work.
Anyway, I just needed to vent....get it off my chest. Thanks.
