Posted: Apr 21, 08 12:15pm
Hello
I am ready to run from my relationship. Problem is I have no where to run to. I have been in my relationship for over 8 years and for the last 7 and a 1/2 years I have tried to leave many times but I keep getting sucked back in by guilt trips being played on me only to have to put up with more of the same old stuff from my partner. Part of my problem is I am out of work due to a spinal condition. I was diagnosed with it back in late 2004. Without a job I can't leave nor go back to living alone. Yet I feel I have to leave just to save my own sanity. I can tell you a lot about my situation but it would take forever. I am really not allowed to talk much about my situation with people because my partner doesn't want me airing our dirty laundry. However how can one get help without spilling the beans about our relationship to the world? I do not know what to do or where I can go. I have no family as mine has disowned me due to other reasons but also because I am with who I am with in life. Everyone seems to want to control my life yet none of them who are trying to control it can even control their own lives. I can only control me I certainly can not control them nor they me but they all do try very hard to do so. I miss being alone and independent and having my own place where no one can tell me how to live. I used to have that in my life now I do not. I am in a Co-dependency and one I can't seem to break away from. What the HELL am I going to do now to get out of it once and for all?
