Every single day of my life. I do take responsibility for my actions. I got into this marriage for the wrong reasons. stayed in it for the wrong reasons and most likely am still in it for the wrong reasons. But my 3 kids that were produced because of it make the pain and sorrow of all those wrong reasons bearable. It's really hard for me when I start the what if game, its a slippery slope, but I sure wish I would have known what I know now 17 years ago, my life would be tremendously different. But I guess all of us could say that even the happy ones.

I do sometimes wonder what if & what it would be like.

Even though I don't have any one in my life at the moment (my Choice), i did wounder sometimes when i was with someone else & that other person had what i wanted, but had to return to the today's world for the simple reason that, sometimes the grass on the other side of the fence isn't alway's greener

Yes Tony... i wonder what would have happened if I could have kept the man from 10 years ago who was my heart and soul. I still want him and think about him every day. But...it was not to be so I try not to dwell on it...it's tuff sometimes though.

Wow, Tony. Thank you for your kind words ~blushing~ As for "what ifs"..I really dont ponder it a whole lot at this point. I have a beautiful son with the man Im married to. I wouldnt trade my son for all the sex in the universe.

No matter how icky my situation with my hubby is, I really dont see myself regretting being with him cuz he gave me my most cherished gift in the world.

Awwww, there's a softy inside of the Devil :-)

Chloe, watch out girl..they're going to start taking advantage of u here!! LOL

Ah, weakness!!!! We have discovered a softy in our midst!