Yes, I can relate and no there is no way to change this. Are you taking your meds???

I never miss a dose--I've "been to that movie before". the thing is that stress can add up and kick me in the butt before I even realize what's happening. Then there's no medicine in the world that can stop that dreaded downward spiral.

I have no idea what movie you are talking about, but I know what you are going through. Maybe some Yoga or meditation or work outs? I think this is the battle though, and I don't think this will change. Maybe therapy, but this is the part that makes the disorder really suck.

When I have a crash, I am totally dependent on my family and friends, thank God they are there! I always take my meds, no matter what!!! My last crash was 3 years ago. It has taken my Dr. all this time to get me on medications that I can tolerate. I am very sensitive to medications, so it took so long! I had gone through 12 ect treatments to help with the depression. It seems like its a constant fight and it seems like one thing makes you happy and 1 person can kick you right back to square 1! I have become a hermit! I used to go to fares, carnivals, just about every where. I just cant do it again, I dont know what happened, but thats where I am now! Just keep trying and praying while staying focused! Take care----sharon----sfco@ptd.net

Bipolar is a chronic illness like so many others. As far as a "normal" life goes....it will only remain in "balance" with medications and understanding our limits. Of course, there are always good days and "bad" days. It's just when the bad ones outweigh the good that we know we have to get help. My family notices changes in me long before I see them myself. At first, I think I am doing fine and deny what they are saying about me not "functioning" up to speed. When I start feeling better I am so grateful that I have such an understanding and supportive family. With out them I don't know how I would have gotten to this point.

I can totally relate to what you are saying. Yet without our friends and family, im scared that we would continue to spiral out of control (more so then what we are when this happens) this is a roller coaster ride for me and just when i get things evened out.. whee here we go again