Posted: Jul 30, 08 6:38am

I am getting ready to go to the cemetary...am reposting this...have to go through ALL this AGAIN next week when Michael would be turning 46...

Anyways... its 9:32am and I am already drained and ready to go back to bed!!!

REPOST:

Well, it will be 11 years ago July 30 that you left me...ALONE...but I know that it was not by your choice! As grandma use to say, "Time heals all", well, it hasn't healed, but it has taken the edge off a bit. You have no idea what the kids and I have been thru, accomplished and yes, endured since your passing...starting with your death, a week later burrying you the day before your 35th birthday and then 2 weeks later, Randi turning 13...LONG journey...with out you...

I sometimes get pissed off at the things that you missed out on (physically-but you were there) from the kids becoming teenagers, learners, licenses, soccer, band, football, wrestling, debate, 1st dates, prom, graduations, college, engagements, marriages and births of our 4 BEAUTIFUL grand babies...Madison, 3, Michael 3, Marcos 2 and Sir Chunks Alot-Leland 9months...I have had to be mom and dad and now Nana and papaw...BUT I love them all enough for the BOTH of us!!!

I'll see you soon on your "anniversary" and then for your 46th birthday...not sure if I can bring balloons in the mosalium, but I'll bring something.

Till then, tell dad and the others I love and miss them...and YOU!!!

You are thought of and missed...just wanted you to know that while I'm listening to the song you use to sing to me by Bob Dylan...Lay lady lay...lay across my big brass bed. Stay lady stay, stay with your man a while...

Love and miss you...

Always

Renae

Michael when Stephen was born 1986

Michael,the kids and I in 1986/87